Week #4: Ewwy Stewy

So guys I have to make a confession, I did go slightly off piste on my diet last week and I broke it literally at the last minute and I feel terrible but what is done is done. Even though I did cheat I have managed to loose 0.2 lbs, I know it’s tiny but it’s something especially considering my midnight binge and I wasn’t even hungry. Temptation is everywhere.

Day #7

Breakfast 11:20amBoiled Egg, Bacon and Cherry Toms (212 kcal), Tea with almond milk (11 kcal)

Ya average brekky, was nice, though I’m disappointed in myself for letting the egg boil for too long. No runny yolk for me today. Sad face emoji.

Lunch 3:40pmCharred Aubergine, Pepper and Bulgur Wheat Salad (198 kcal)

I’ve never had bulgur wheat before but I hazarded a guess that it is something like couscous and it kinda is, just a bigger grain. It’s a lil fussier to cook than couscous considering all you have to do is pour hot stock on it and leave it be, bulgur wheat actually required cooking. I don’t know if that is just for this specific brand of wheat but I wasn’t in the mood to experiment so I just did as I was told by the packet. I cooked the wheat in chicken stock as I learnt from an earlier mistake of cooking couscous with water — it was the the most plainest thing ever. When I read through the recipe I was afraid it was going to lack flavour but charring the red pepper really makes it taste sweeter and I am surprised at difference the humble salt and pepper can really make to your dish. Overall, a really great lunch actually!

Dinner 8:30 – Squash and Chorizo Stew (264 kcal)

I love squash I would say it’s one of my top 5 vegetables ever but somehow it was lacking in this ‘stew’ and I don’t think it was because of under seasoning. I was concerned from the lack of ingredients in this dish but I liked everything on there so I thought ‘what the hell, I’ll try it’. To me it didn’t feel like the squash and chorizo really go together, it was really like I was biting into a bit of squash which was kinda bland and then a chunk of chorizo which was fiery and hot. Nil point for enjoyment.

Treat 10:00 – Hot Chocolate (60 kcal)

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Week #1: Don’t Fear the Frittata

Welcome to the first installation of my diet diary! Party poppers popped and glasses clinked. So on my last diet conscious entry I didn’t specify how much weight I wanted to lose because at the time I didn’t know exactly how much I weighed so I didn’t know much I wanted to lose but behold the scale batteries have finally been replaced so I can start my journey. I’m aiming to stick to this diet for 12 weeks and attempting to lose about half a stone or 7 pounds and who knows maybe miraculously I’ll wake up at the end of this with an 25″ waist. (In my dreams). If you missed my previous post about why and what this diet diary is about, let me direct you here. I used the recipes from the BBC food which has all the calories worked out so this should be easy peasy to follow and stick to.

DAY #1

Breakfast 10am – Yoghurt with Banana and Pumpkin seeds (149 kcal), Tea with Soy Milk (15 kcal)

Yes, I woke up late today okay, don’t judge me. I actually didn’t hate this as much as I thought I was going to, I feared the natural yoghurt was going to have too much of a tang but it wasn’t too bad, I did cheat a little bit with an added teaspoon of honey. I noticed how slowly I was eating this too which made me feel fuller. Even if I did cheat. On the first dish. Then I had remembered that I don’t get on fabulously with yoghurt and that there’s a reason why I have soy milk in my tea and coffee. It gave me stomach cramps and worst. You know what I’m talking about fellow lactose intolerant readers.

11am -The first audible stomach rumble from a distance. I’m getting nervous now.

Lunch 1:30pm Garlic Mushroom Frittata with Salad (243 kcal)

The recipe preparation method for this was way too fussy. I was really looking forward to eating this but my cooking completely let it down, under seasoned, garlic not cooked enough and the accompanying salad with NO dressing whatsoever wasn’t exactly a joy to eat. I tried to eat all the cucumber but we just don’t gel, there’s something about the taste of it that’s just so odd, and it’s flavour is really strong for something that is meant to be mostly water. It made me appreciate the cherry tomatoes so much. I felt hungry whilst I was eating this and continued to feel hungry after.

Dinner 6:00pm Meatballs with Courgetti (219 kcal)

This has definitely been my favourite dish of the day — not that it’s hard to beat right now. I couldn’t stand this ridiculous hunger anymore and it was my mine prompter to start getting dinner ready. It was really straight forward to do, I managed to roll out 15 meatballs and after tasting the sauce I decided to jazz it up a bit with dried chilli flakes and lil bit of sugar, to balance out the sourness. I actually love the idea of making spaghetti from veg though I would thoroughly drain it before plating the sauce of top, a ring of orange water wasn’t the nicest thing to look at but at least it was tasty!

Snack 8:16pm – Ate the other half of the banana from this morning (approx. 45 kcal)

Treat 9:30pm Hot Chocolate (60 kcal) and Jaffa Cake (46 kcal)

I totted up all the calories I had consumed today and was desperate to look for something that would fill the remaining calories I had left (about 129), this was an absolute wake up call to what was available to me. I definitely wanted something ‘naughty’ and a sweet drink should sooth the beast that is my stomach, I went for the Options ‘Dreamy Belgian Chocolate’ and made it up in the biggest mug I could find, accompanied by a single jaffa cake. Did you know ONE jaffa cake contained 46 calories?!?! Yet they shout about the whole 1g of fat per cake. Pssh. I ain’t impressed. I ate this as slowly as I could, savouring every bite because at the time it felt like the most amazing thing to grace my lips but we all know it’s just a humble jaffa. In the moment I loved it as much as Homer loves donuts. Mmmmmmm donuts.

Onwards – I’M SO HUNGRY BEYOND ANYTHING. I am so ready for breakfast now. NOW.

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I am a Constant Craver

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My relationship with food has more or less been the same my entire existence, I’ve never really been that girl who was obsessive with dieting or my weight because mainly for the first 3/4 of my life I’d been relying on my genes to take care of me and they did, in fact I was a scrawny child and my parents were keen to get me to eat more or I wouldn’t grow. (Asian family logic.) I suppose they were right in one way because I never got taller but I sure grew wider.

To be honest, I’ve never considered myself fat or even chubby, I thought I was just average but one day I did get an awakening when someone made a point that I looked like I had lost weight — but I wasn’t purposely dieting or exercising at the time. Though it was meant as a compliment, all I could think about was “how big did I look before?!” It was the first direct comment I’ve ever received about my body. It made me a gazillion times more self conscious and for the first time, made me look at my body in a different way, through the eyes of someone else. I constantly flip between having the body confidence of Hannah Horvarth/Lena Dunham and the drastic desperation to be a Victoria Secret runway ready. Which has made me a serial exercise and diet yo-yoer, not surprising when I could never commit to a stance on how I want my body to look and what I was happy with. (Which is probably more a self esteem issue than a weight issue but I don’t wanna go too off piste, I’ll save that for another day.)

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